Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving

Today was Thanksgiving. For many, that means family gatherings with more people than normal, more noise than normal and everything is more crowded and tense than normal. There’s lots of food and smells that are perhaps not there every day. Today, for many people, as wonderful as it can be, can also be quite stressful. This can be especially so in the autism world.

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Declan has never done well in crowds or in unfamiliar, confined spaces. If you mix these elements together, he wants to exit and leave right after entering. This is one of the handful of things that he is really good at communicating, actually. He’ll lead us to the door and say “bye bye” or “all done”. Last year during Thanksgiving he did this very thing within a few minutes of being there. We were able to stall him a bit but we did end up leaving fairly quickly.

There is also the element of unpredictability in a somewhat unfamiliar environment. If left to his own devices today, Declan would have likely broken a fairly large television. At home we’ve mounted our TV on the wall out of reach of the boys. The TV today was well within his reach and he was absolutely fascinated by it. Consequently, Declan required constant monitoring. Either Christa or myself was with him the entirety of our stay. There is no relaxing, no letting him roam and play, no fully engaged adult conversations. In situations such as today, we have to eat in shifts. One of us with the boys while the other eats and then we swap.

And what about sitting down for the traditional early afternoon Thanksgiving dinner with family and the boys? No chance. Not even close. With Declan’s eating and feeding issues, not only will he not eat turkey, potatoes, gravy, stuffing or anything else that was part of the magnificent spread today, had we brought his normal food with, because we weren’t at home, at our table, he wouldn’t have eaten anyway.

There are countless challenges, big and small, associated with holidays. There are tons of nuances that come in to play with events we partake in that are out of our normal routine. Being a couple year veterans of living life through the lens of autism, we realize these things and put in to practice what we’ve learned to make it as smooth as we can for all of us.

Last year, Thanksgiving was pretty rough. It was very difficult for all of us.

This year was… Awesome. It was an absolutely beautiful day. Declan surprised us, big time.

This year, I am thankful for surprises.

We woke up this morning and the boys were in a good mood. They ate what amounted to a brunch, in preparation for potentially being away from home until dinner time.

We loaded up our car, departed and travelled the half hour to our destination and the car ride was smooth. There was a day when Christa and I were of a similar mindset in that when we had children, we’d maintain a certain level of coolness. We’d still listen to current music, we’d be able to have conversations with adults about relevant things happening today, we’d go out in public… well, I’m here to tell you that we’ve failed. Our car rides are full of Raffi and Pete The Cat these days. We talk about poop seven days per week and most days I shouldn’t be in public. For various reasons.

We arrived and we all walked in to the house and most people were already there. In total, there were just shy of twenty people in attendance today so it was certainly loud and at times a bit crowded. Dec came in with us and (when prompted) said hi to everyone and gave high fives! He was present. He was happy. Today Declan was relaxed. He was at ease. We couldn’t believe it.

Declan has never been totally comfortable around dogs. At best, he’s been impartial. Typically he’s been very standoffish and retreats from them. Today, Declan sat next to both of the large black labs and pet them. He sat with his legs touching their legs and a hand on one of their necks. He was really in to it. This was really comforting for us to see as we are on a pretty substantial wait list for an autism assist dog. We have been slightly worried that Declan wouldn’t acclimate to having a dog around but what we saw today was quite reassuring.

One of Declan’s biggest, most consistent challenges has been eating and feeding. He only eats a few foods and will not use utensils. Today while I was eating, Declan sat on my lap and he actually helped me with the fork a couple times! He helped feed me a couple bites and said “mmm mmm mmm!”! If I would have tried this a year ago or even a few months ago, Declan would have gagged at the sight and smell of the food and no way would he sit on my lap while I ate.

Declan let us know that he was ready to go in his classic “bye bye” style. We packed everything up and we were actually able to go around and say good bye to every person individually. Declan said “bye” and gave everyone a high five. Last year, when Dec was ready to go, he was very ready. There was no palling around after that, no extended good byes. We packed up and hit the road. This year, he was patient and understanding. He got it.

We arrived back home and Declan had a beautiful Thanksgiving dinner of chicken nuggets, white cheddar cheese puffs, a pouch of yogurt and water. Coincidentally the same as his brunch earlier in the day. And the same as lunch the day before, et cetera. And it was beautiful.

Thanksgiving this year, I believe is a glimpse in to the trajectory of our future. This isn’t to definitively say that our most difficult moments are behind us – they certainly may be – but I am confident that our best moments aren’t behind us either. With Declan learning and growing as he is and with Silas growing up so damn fast, I look forward to our future for many reasons.

I am thankful for the surprises that Declan gave us today. I am thankful for the surprises that life yields from time to time. Today, I am thankful that we didn’t come up with an excuse to stay home today and take what could have been the easier route.

Happy Thanksgiving

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6 thoughts on “Happy Thanksgiving

  1. Joel: Thank you for such a beautiful description of a day that I was also part of. Which is to say: I can to attest to its accuracy. I think there was something really nice in the air–we’ll probably never know what it was. I’m not knowledgeable, but maybe Declan was picking up on the same mysteriously sweet stuff that we all were.

    1. I think that certainly may be. He is full of surprises and continues to amaze us and that day was certainly no exception! I’m glad we were all there and all experienced a similarly wonderful day.

      1. These comments and all of Joel’s insights are right on and amazing – the vulnerable writing is selfless and is a gift you are giving Declan, yourself and those who share in your experience. Both Joel and Christa continue to amaze me in their parenting skills and endless patience and love for their sons. Keep advocating and letting your voice be heard!

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